I don't remember Christmas last year... I had to really, really rack my brain trying to remember what on earth we did to celebrate. With the help of my husband, sister, and parents I slowly pieced together what we did to celebrate Christmas. It is no surprise to me that I don't remember much of the fall last year, I hibernated in my house with my kids and tried to make sense of what was happening.
This Christmas is much different. Life is different. As I witness other I-cell families and Canuck Place families try to cope with the loss of their child at this time of year, I try to make as many memories as a family as I can. I get so inspired by Gabrielle so many times during the day. I hold her and realize that one day these will be but a memory so I make sure to hug and kiss her as many times as I can. I don't know if she will physically be with us next Christmas, it could be her last here with us.
When you have a little girl like Gabrielle things like lots of presents and toys don't seem important. I don't want to spend my time running around like crazy buying toys and presents for my kids when soon they just end up as clutter and junk in the landfills. What I do want is to spend time with the people I love the most. That is what Christmas is all about to me. Making memories, laughing, loving and sharing time with those you love.
The gift of time. Giving.