The Schizophrenia of Coping with a Long Goodbye

One week everything seems to be going well,
The next everything's coming undone.

One day you wish for it to be over.
The other you wish it will never end.

One hour you're laughing with the one you don't want to say goodbye to,
The next you're using medical equipment and meds to help them out of a lapse.

One minute your screaming all inside that this isn't fair,
The next you think how lucky you are to have the fortune you do.

One second you're going to run away,
The next you get pangs of anxiety at the thought of being alone.

To be in the moment,
To long for the next.

Multiple realities all bundled up in a life that can only handle one at a time.

The schizophrenia of coping with a long goodbye.