I think for the past year and a half I have been grieving the loss of any normalcy. What is a normal life? I think living a normal, or regular life is one that is predictable and kind of gels with the rest of the community and or culture that you live in.
Since the birth of our beautiful daughter Gabrielle, I have lost and have been grieving a normal life for me, my kids, my husband and most importantly, for my dear, sweet daughter Gabrielle. And here I am, a year and a half later, and I am still crying tears over what could have been, and over what my daughter, my family will never experience.
Some of me has accepted our new normal. But, I don't know if I will ever be 100% ok with our new normal. I think a part of me will always, always grieve for the loss of life, the loss of many things amidst all the gains and lessons learned. What I really would wish for would be for Gabrielle to experience life with a healthy body like mine, like yours, like the rest of my children.